srwug_alphanews | (no subject)

This has been a rough choice, one that I've been struggling with for a long time. Since RPM, to be honest. I'm leaving UG@, and I can't promise I'll be back. I'm just not happy here. I'm not a good fit. I'm an introverted person who is terrible in chats and who has spurts of activity that come and go. Maybe it's burnout, maybe it's stress from the past few months IRL, maybe it's that my confidence has been shaken since RPM, or maybe it's just that I'm playing such a heavy character like Eiji and I didn't watch my own mental state closely enough, but I'm not having fun here. I feel like I've been calling it in on all of my tags and activity, and it's not fair to anyone—not to you guys or to me.

I've tried to keep this indecision quiet, since every time I brought up my dissatisfaction, people have tried to work it out with me, and I don't think it's something I can just "work out." I can't put my finger on it, but there's a problem when I'm excited about my other games and try to find a reason not to tag in here, when I play a character I really like and who I understand fairly well.

Eiji's goodbye post is here. I don't expect anyone to tag him, since, after all, it is a goodbye. But he's leaving behind the Birth Buster and some Candroids for anyone who wants them.

I'm sorry, everyone. I feel like I've let everyone down, and you deserve someone more invested.

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You're not letting down anyone, you don't have any obligations to force yourself to stay in the game. I'm just sad to see you go, but it seems like you thought long and hard about this decision.

It's been fun. And if you ever feel like you want to return, we'll always welcome you again.

Thanks. I feel like it's a ton of irony, given how the whole theme of the arc of OOO I was going to play out is how things should continue rather than end, and here I am defying the lesson.

I'm sorry to see you go, but I don't feel you're letting anyone down. I hope you'll be back, but either way I wish you well.